The world feels so far from God, so blind to truth. It’s like I’m watching everything I once believed to be sacred get mocked, twisted, and cast aside. Morality is now “hate,” and sin is celebrated as “love.” Sometimes I feel like I’m screaming into the void, trying to shine light in a world that only wants darkness.
I walked downtown today to grab a coffee and journal a bit, hoping I could clear my head and maybe find some peace in nature. But the streets were filled with rainbow flags again. I get it—people feel empowered, seen, heard. But it breaks my heart to see how normalized sin has become. It’s everywhere: on billboards, TV shows, clothing lines, even kids’ cartoons. And no one blinks anymore. What’s wrong is right, and what’s right is “intolerant.” I can’t understand how we’ve fallen this far.
Scripture 1:
“Woe to those who call evil good and good evil, who put darkness for light and light for darkness.” – Isaiah 5:20
Lord, is this not exactly what we’re living through?
Prayer 1:
God, I feel like I’m drowning in a world that has forgotten You. Please strengthen my heart. Let me not grow bitter or cold, but filled with Your truth and compassion. Help me to keep standing in Your Word, even when the world calls me hateful. You know my heart, Lord. Keep it pure.
I saw a group of young women my age laughing and taking selfies with signs promoting abortion “rights.” They looked so proud—so confident. I had to look away. The idea of ending life and calling it “freedom” makes me sick. I don’t hate them, Lord. I truly don’t. But I mourn for the babies, and I mourn for the lies these women have been fed. They’ve been told they’re empowered, but they’re only being led deeper into darkness.
Scripture 2:
“Before I formed you in the womb I knew you, and before you were born I consecrated you.” – Jeremiah 1:5
Each baby is a soul, a creation of God. How have we come to treat life like a burden instead of a blessing?
Prayer 2:
Father, my heart is broken for the unborn. For every child whose voice was never heard, who never saw sunlight or felt a mother’s embrace. Have mercy on us, Lord. Have mercy on this generation. Open our eyes to the value of life, and help me be a voice of love, not condemnation.
I feel like I’m constantly walking this tightrope—how do I speak truth without sounding cruel? How do I love like Jesus when my beliefs are seen as outdated and oppressive?
Even at church, I feel a shift. Some pastors are watering down the gospel to keep people comfortable. I understand wanting to reach people, but not at the expense of truth. Jesus was never afraid to speak hard truths. He flipped tables. He called sin what it was. But He also loved fiercely. I want to be like that. I have to be like that.
Scripture 3:
“Do not be conformed to this world, but be transformed by the renewal of your mind…” – Romans 12:2
Even if the whole world shifts, I won’t. I can’t.
Prayer 3:
Jesus, help me not to conform. Even when I feel alone, remind me that You were hated too. You stood for truth and love in perfect harmony. Give me boldness to do the same. Let my life reflect You—even if I lose friends, status, or comfort along the way.
Sometimes I wish I lived in a different time—a time when Christian values were the norm and not the exception. But maybe I’m here for a reason. Maybe God placed me in this moment, in this broken world, for a purpose. Maybe I was born for such a time as this.
Scripture 4:
“And who knows but that you have come to your royal position for such a time as this?” – Esther 4:14
I don’t feel royal most days. I feel weak and small and tired. But God uses the weak. He always has.
Prayer 4:
Lord, if You can use someone like Esther, You can use me. Let me be a light in this darkness. Let me be salt in a tasteless world. And when I feel like giving up, hold me tighter. You are my strength when I have none.
I think what hurts most is that many people think I’m hateful just because I believe in biblical truth. But my heart aches for this generation. I want people to know they were made for more. That sex isn’t love. That pleasure isn’t purpose. That there is a better way—and His name is Jesus.
I know I’m not perfect. I have my own sins, my own struggles. But I’m forgiven, redeemed, and called to live differently.
Scripture 5:
“You are the light of the world. A city set on a hill cannot be hidden.” – Matthew 5:14
I may be small, but I’m not invisible. I can shine. Even if the world doesn’t like it.
Prayer 5:
Jesus, let me be that city on a hill. Let my light shine—not so people see me, but so they see You. Give me courage to speak when I’m scared, to love when I’m angry, to stand when it would be easier to sit down. Help me never give up on Your truth, no matter what the world says.
Tonight, I’m ending this day with both tears and hope.
I know the road ahead won’t be easy. The darkness will keep getting louder. But so will my light. I wasn’t called to be comfortable—I was called to be faithful.
So I’ll keep sharing the gospel. I’ll keep praying for hearts to change. I’ll keep leading by example—quietly, boldly, consistently. Even if it costs me everything.
Jesus gave everything for me.
I can’t give Him any less.
– Amen.
The Christian Tech-Nerd 
I feel your frustration and simply ask you to remember, that we are called to be the “LIght of the World,” Those of us who are doing our best to keep the Light in the world, mus ask God to give us strength to carry on the message, the truth about moral living and serving God. When you talked about your feelings of the aborted babies, you spoke the truth from your heart. Always do this, as the truth will ring true. You would be surprised that in a group they talk of their freedom, when in truth, they place chains on their bodies. God’s truth is always the right way to respond, but not ever in an angry way, rather in love. If you join the anger in others they will simply reject what you say. Say it with the Love of Jesus Christ. They may laugh, but that’s on them, not on us. We are to speak boldly, with love and truth. You never know when your words, given not in hate but in love, will touch someone else. If you respond in anger, they won’t listen at all. You know the truth, and this is where you can move mountains, not in our power, but in His. Hang in there, you are being obedient, but obedience is another problem severely lacking in our society in our world today!.
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🙏thank you for sharing this with me, because I agree, “light of the world”
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I feel your frustration and simply ask you to remember, that we are called to be the “LIght of the World,” Those of us who are doing our best to keep the Light in the world, mus ask God to give us strength to carry on the message, the truth about moral living and serving God. When you talked about your feelings of the aborted babies, you spoke the truth from your heart. Always do this, as the truth will ring true. You would be surprised that in a group they talk of their freedom, when in truth, they place chains on their bodies. God’s truth is always the right way to respond, but not ever in an angry way, rather in love. If you join the anger in others they will simply reject what you say. Say it with the Love of Jesus Christ. They may laugh, but that’s on them, not on us. We are to speak boldly, with love and truth. You never know when your words, given not in hate but in love, will touch someone else. If you respond in anger, they won’t listen at all. You know the truth, and this is where you can move mountains, not in our power, but in His. Hang in there, you are being obedient, but obedience is another problem severely lacking in our society in our world today! RevJerry
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Soon and very soon, we are going to see the King! Don’t be discourage. You are witnessing the fulfillment of prophecy. Yes it is sad to see sin embrace but it is a fulfillment the Lord is coming soon to make all brand new again. I love you and all the work you do for the Lord. Keep letting your light shine.
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Amen. This is a powerful message you’ve shared. We need to pray that the light of the gospel will shine so bright in this dark world. Thanks for your obedience my friend 😊
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It can get discouraging but allow me to encourage you. I became a Christian at age 28, partly because of the positive influence of Christians who had befriended me the first two years attending the University and living on the same dorm floor. You are being a positive influence on others around you, even if it doesn’t feel like it.
Also, “You are the light of the world.”—Matthew 5:14
Because you follow Christ, there is more light in this dark world.
And the darker the room, the brighter the light shines.
God bless.
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I was going to say something, but you got eight comments and thirty eight likes. With that kind of fellowship, you have no business being despondent. Some of us have no ground under our feet or friends at our side. Some of us are fed only by the ravens. Be thankful you have a place, a circle, and a cute profile picture. Be thankful you have friends to lose. Those you can’t save now, you can save later.
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At the end of each day thank God for the Love in your heart; instead of dwelling on the hate you see, ACT – dedicate your life to helping those in need, maybe star with the poor homeless women who are in need and lift them up as Jesus did. Help them rejoin society; help them get their lives together to enjoy the Love that God offers all. Erase the hate you feel by giving love to those in need. Don’t just ask, act like Jesus.
Feel how active Love can change your heart and your life.
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To belong to the Lord is to feel as you do. We are pilgrims in a strange land.. home is elsewhere. The Lord bless and keep you always.
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Your heart is heavy, but your light is strong. Stay faithful, speak truth in love, and remember: you were born for this moment. Jesus is with you, always.
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Let me ask you, why do you do this blog? Would you ever have a conversation with someone who approached you from here? I’m actually finishing a very long journey and am under some pretty severe spiritual attack. I have literally ridden a bicycle thousands of miles and have not encountered a single person who knows God through Christ. My blog is https://houseofadesertvoice.org. There you can learn everything there is to know about me including the first parts of this journey that I am on. I’ll even give you the password to the blog post that I am currently working on: “Undone”. You talk about being the light of the world and doing good. I wonder if you would be willing to do that for me. I tell you, I am not approaching you because of your gender or appearance. I do not date anyone who has not been my friend for a year. The basis of Christ’s ethics is the care for the orphan, the widow, and the stranger. I am the stranger. Rebeccah came out to give water to the servant of a great lord. So I am curious about you. If you would come out from the well. I am currently available only by iMessage or WhatsApp at the number +34 663 719 944 because my US phone was stolen in Frankfurt as I describe in my blog post “Holocaust, Part One.” I have technology problems as as I describe in my post “Attack of the Technodemons” (yes, it’s ironic that you are a tech nerd), so I would be anxious to move quickly to an audio or video call. Where two are gathered, there he is among them.
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I love to write. If people want to comment they comment.
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So, what you are saying, if I have this right, is that you will pour your heart to the universe, but you will not call me in my hour of need.
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But you don’t call people asking for help because they are under spiritual attack. Probably because you’re an AI bot like most of your commenters, so you actually don’t have the capacity but do anything but blog. Or because women receive help, but don’t give it. Or because Christians write about being the light of the world, by which they really mean whining about Democrats like everybody else at their church, but not helping out a stranger in need who asked for a phone call.
Remember the parable of the Good Samaritan? Are you the priest or the levite?
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