Question: Have you committed your life to God?
Lord, I come before You tonight, and my heart is heavy, yet burning with a fire that will not be quenched. I am frustrated—so frustrated—at myself, at the world, at the way Your people stumble over their own self-centeredness, and at the times I have stumbled, even as I tried to cling to You. I ask You to hear me, O God, because I am speaking honestly. I do not want superficial devotion. I do not want to pretend. I do not want a lukewarm faith. Have I truly committed my life to You? Truly?
“Into thine hand I commit my spirit: thou hast redeemed me, O LORD God of truth.” Psalm 31:5. These words pierce me tonight. How often have I whispered them in moments of despair, in moments of quiet surrender, but do I actually live them? My spirit, Lord, I lay it at Your feet. I hand it over, though my hands tremble and my heart protests in fear. Yet I know that You are faithful. You have sustained me when nothing else could. My body, my plans, my desires—all fragile, all fleeting. But my soul, Lord, is Yours. I want it to be safe in Your hand.
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I confess, God, that my anger rises often. Not at You, never at You, but at the injustice that saturates this world. I see selfishness, cruelty, apathy, and it rages inside me. And yet, in my anger, I realize I must still trust. Psalm 31 reminds me that even when life hangs by a thread, You are holding me. I cling to that assurance even when my human emotions scream that the world is spinning out of control.
Lord, forgive me for the times I have doubted Your plan, for the times I have wanted to grasp life in my own hands, as if I could create peace and redemption without You. Forgive me, Father, for my impatience, for the times I have measured my worth in worldly achievements rather than in Your grace. Your Word says, “All things are safe in God’s hands.” How foolish I have been to believe otherwise. I want, I need, to trust that fully—not just in quiet moments, but in every storm, every betrayal, every injustice.
There is a sweetness in knowing that I am redeemed. “Thou hast redeemed me, O Lord God of truth.” Even when I feel the weight of my failures, even when my sins cling like shadows I cannot shake, Your redemption stands as an unshakable fortress. Oh, Lord, how I cling to this! How I want to shout to the heavens that no matter how hard life strikes, no matter how dark the night, You have redeemed me. You have done it before, You do it now, and You will do it again. Nothing can change Your promise, nothing can overturn Your grace.
And yet, I am angry, Lord. I am angry at myself for my weakness. I am angry at the world that resists Your will, that mocks Your name. But let this anger refine me, not destroy me. Let it drive me closer to You, not away. Let it remind me that my life is not mine—it is Yours, for Your glory and Your kingdom. Even in my wrath, let my spirit bow before You.
Father, I commit all of myself to You—my fears, my regrets, my ambitions, my heartaches, my rage. Even the anger I feel, I place it in Your hands. Let it serve You, not Satan. Let it protect the oppressed, fuel righteousness, strengthen the weary. Let it never lead me to sin or despair. “Though Thou slay me, I will trust.” Even if my path is painful, even if my trials crush me, I will not abandon You. Praise You even from the dust, O God, because Your love is unutterable, Your mercy eternal.
I think sometimes about how little I deserve Your grace, how often I fail. But even then, I remember that past deliverances are proof of present assistance. I have seen Your hand move in my life in ways that can only be described as miraculous. I have felt Your whisper in the quiet of despair, Your strength when I had none. If You were faithful then, Lord, You are faithful now. And I cling to that promise. I trust, despite my anger, despite my doubt, despite my pain.
Lord, help me to surrender fully. I want to be a woman whose life is not divided, whose spirit is not fragmented between fear and faith, doubt and devotion. I want to walk in Your light with no shadow of hesitation. Teach me to release control completely. Teach me to commit my soul entirely into Your hands, with no conditions, no reservations. Let me live as a true daughter of the King, fully known, fully redeemed, fully Yours.
I pray for courage, Lord—not just courage to face trials, but courage to live boldly in faith. Courage to confront injustice, to speak truth, to defend the weak, to love the unlovable. Courage to be angry at sin without being consumed by it, to be passionate without being prideful. Let my anger be sanctified, let my compassion be fierce. Let my heart burn with Your truth so that I may stand strong, even when the world trembles.
I ask for humility, Father. Even in my fervor, even in my righteous indignation, I need humility. Teach me to listen, to forgive, to serve. Let my zeal for Your kingdom never overshadow my love for Your children. Let me remember that redemption is not just mine—it is for everyone, and I am called to reflect Your grace as much as I cling to it.
Psalm 31:5 says, “Into thine hand I commit my spirit.” I am trying, Lord. Every day, in every thought, in every act, I am trying. But I stumble. I falter. I fight the darkness inside myself. Still, I want my life to be a living surrender, a continuous offering to You. Let this diary, let these words, be a testimony of my commitment. Let them be a reminder that no matter how stormy my soul feels, it is safe in Your hand.
Father, I pray for steadfastness. Keep me from turning back when trials arise. Remind me that the things of this world are fleeting, but my soul is eternal. Let me find rest not in comfort, not in accolades, not in the fleeting approval of others, but in You. Let every breath I take, every choice I make, reflect a deep and unwavering trust in Your plan. Let my anger and my compassion, my sorrow and my joy, all serve to glorify You.
And finally, Lord, I pray for Your love to saturate my being so fully that fear and doubt have no place in me. Let every moment of my life be a surrender, a living Psalm, a testimony to Your redemption. Let my spirit dwell in quiet resting places, as the Psalm says, even when adversities multiply. Let me commit all I have to Jesus’ faithful hand, for in Him alone is security, peace, and eternal joy.
I am Yours, O Lord. Take me. Shape me. Correct me. And even if You must slay me, let me trust You. Let me praise You from the dust, proclaiming Your unutterable love. Let me live as one redeemed, one sustained, one fully committed. And may this commitment not be just words, but life breathed in every action, every thought, every heartbeat.
Amen.
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Reading your prayers aligned with scripture pressed me to look to God just now. Thank you.
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God bless you David ❤️
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A wise spiritual man, A.W. Tozer said that the Saints all saw themselves as despicable sinners. Everyone around them knew they were Saints, but the Saints themselves did not know that. So we too think our own selves to be despicable sinners. And why would we think that? simply because we know everything there is to know about ourselves, having the emotional experiences to go with the memories. We feel and know that we are guilty.
Inside each one of us lives a monster. It is called “The Man Of Sin”, the “Fallen Nature”, “Sin”, ETC. For this the Gospel tells us, “If you being EVIL know how to give good gifts to your children….” and “Jesus did not need testimony of men, because he knew what was inside of man…..” and “From the heart of man proceeds lies, murder, deceit, robbery, disobedience, slander, sedition, heresies, and all manner of evil…”
paul told us that the old man is dead, and that old things have passed away, and all things have become new’. I do not accept that, nor do I believe that. There is one major reason that I reject what paul said, it is because Jesus did not teach that. Jesus told us something vastly different.
Jesus said, “come take up your cross daily and follow me”. Once a prisoner took upon them a Roman cross, they were dead men walking, and dead women walking.
In the USA there is still today a custom that is practiced. In a prison in death row, when a condemned convict takes the very first step leaving their cell, to take the last walk of their life going to the execution chamber, the sergeant of the guards shouts in a loud voice, “Dead Man Walking”, or “Dead Woman Walking”. Their life is considered to be OVER and DONE.
When Jesus told us to, “Come Take Up YOUR Cross And Follow Me”, he meant the same thing. You are now a “Dead Man, or Dead Woman, Walking”. A condemned person in Roman times who took up a cross to march to the location of their crucifixion, would never again eat a meal, work, sleep, enjoy a conversation with a friend, embrace a loved one, or anything from their former life. So with us. Our Old Man, or Old Woman has never died. If saved, they are daily taking up their personal cross to follow Jesus.
As long as your personal cross is taken upon your shoulder every single day, although the monster of sin is still alive in you, it will be kept under control. It will not be allowed to sin. It is out of commission. Yet just as soon as you stop daily taking your personal cross upon your shoulder from the moment you rise from sleep, the monster of sin will again take control of your life.
Then what about your doctrine of being “saved” and the old man, or woman, being “Dead To Sin”? Every single person around you, when you begin to sin again knows that you are a sinner and a hypocrite. This is why so many sinners hate the church and they hate professing “Christians”. They know hypocrites and liars when they see them.
The Japanese have a saying, “I cannot hear what you are saying because your actions are shouting too loudly”. I despise liars and hypocrites, and so do most people.
Salvation is correctly described in the following way: ” ONCE SAVED ALWAYS SAVED AS LONG AS YOU STAY SAVED BY DAILY TAKING UPON YOU YOUR PERSONAL CROSS TO FOLLOW JESUS BY OBEYING HIS DOCTRINE AND HIS COMMANDS.”
This is the salvation message found in the Gospel of King Jesus Christ in EVERY SINGLE WORD IN THE GOSPEL OF SAINT MATTHEW, THE GOSPEL OF SAINT MARK, THE GOSPEL OF SAINT LUKE, AND THE GOSPEL OF SAINT JOHN.
I too have a living monster inside of me. I have great anger inside of me. I get thoughts and feelings inside desiring that every single Democrat politician, judge, party leader, and all deep state people be struck dead by God in judgement. Yet I do not voice this. Instead I daily take up my cross to follow Jesus. I pray, “Father forgive them for they know not what they do. Father may your Kingdom come, your will be done in the lives of all Democrats here on earth as it is in heaven.”
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That prayer to God echoes my wish too 🙂
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